I have been reading the gospels and thinking about the disciples here lately. Here is a group of men who know Jesus first hand, yet miracle after miracle they stand and question who he is!?!?! For example: in Matthew, when he calmed the sea of Galilee and the disciples asked each other who is this man who even the wind and waves obey Him? I read and then picture Jesus rolling His eyes and sighing. I think what a bunch of doofus'. But then the Lord spoke to me.
You see I was raised in church and know the power of the Lord. That sometimes leads to a state of contentment. Contentment means being satisfied with one's situation/possession/position, so basically being happy where you are at. A state that I believe most Christians will struggle with at some point in their walk.
The disciples were sitting, eating, living with the Son of God and were not content. Yes, they knew who He was, but Jesus was not taken for grant it by His devoted followers. They didn't act entitled or expect Jesus to perform for them. They didn't watch a cripple man get up and walk and act like it was just another day.
I think about how many times I have witnessed the power of God, just to walk away and act like it was just another day. You see, I don't want to be content, EVER, in my walk with the Lord. I never want to take for grant it His power and blessings which he bestows on me for no reason other than He loves me!! I pray that I never stop getting excited about Jesus, that I never get content with my relationship with the Lord. I want to feel butterflies each time I think about His love. I want to walk closer each day with the one who gave me life, the one who loves me for who I am, the one who sent His only Son to die that I may have eternal life.
You see, He is my first love!