Tuesday, March 13, 2018

Who am I trying to be

For many years, I have been a Christian. I was raised in church, literally. When the doors were opened, we were there. You would think that I would have this Christian walk down, right? I should know who I am, right? But then, why do I try to be everyone else? I sit and compare my walk with those around me. Why can't I be as strong as she is, why can't I worship as freely as her, why can't I speak as eloquently as she does? I could go on and on (and on and on).

Here recently I have struggled with insecurity. I feel so inadequate - inferior - expendable.

That is when God steps in and asks - When have I ever asked you to be anyone but you?

Yes, God, but I probably won't ruffle as many feathers, if I had a little more gentleness like so-and-so. I am sure that they would prefer someone who prays more eloquently.

Then I am reminded how I am God's handiwork.

Ephesians 2:10 For [I am] God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for [me] to do.

How many opportunities have I missed trying to be like ___(insert name)_______? I have let my insecurities keep me from walking in the fullness Christ intended for me. I can't be anyone but me.

Saturday, June 14, 2014

Where Does Your Ministry Start?

As I watch my two girls out the window with a friend, the Lord impresses a question on my mind - Where does my ministry start? Does it start at church, work, at the grocery store?

No, my ministry starts at home - with my family. It doesn't matter how many services I attend, if I fail to live it at home, then its all been in vain.

Dueteronomy 6:5-7 says "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your strength. And these words which I command you today shall be in your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, when you walk by the way, when you lie down, and when you rise up."

When we go through everyday living, we must demonstrate the qualities of God. Telling them what Jesus is, is not enough. This is a generation that needs to see Jesus in action.

We've been given a great responsiblity, a great blessing and a means to succeed. God didn't set us loose with kids. He gave us His Word to teach us, to encourage us and help us succeed. He gave us a helpmate - the Holy Spirit to guide us. It is not too late to step into the role God designed you for. Just stop, pray and trust God! He will direct your steps. (Psalm 119:133 "Direct my steps by Your word, And let no iniquity have dominion over me.")

Lord, help me to walk out my witness in front of my girls. Help me be the type of Godly woman that they look up to. I want to be their mentor, not just their mom. I want to influence them more than the world. Make me more like you, Jesus!

Friday, June 6, 2014

Breaking the Masks




Just a few of the many masks I find myself putting on (there are many more). I have found that hiding my true self is easier than just being me. Rejection hurts less if I am wearing the mask. It doesn't mean that I am not sarcastic at times, tough at times or funny (in my opinion, I am hilarious). It just means I shouldn't let that mask take over who I was created to be.

But by putting on a mask, I am really covering up what my Creator has called fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14)

So today, I am taking a stand, breaking and throwing away all masks!


I am accepted...

John 1:12 I am God's child.
Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God

John 15:15 As a disciple, I am a friend of Jesus Christ.
I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.

Romans 5:1 I have been justified.
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ,

1 Corinthians 6:17 I am united with the Lord, and I am one with Him in spirit.
But he who unites himself with the Lord is one with him in spirit.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20 I have been bought with a price and I belong to God.
Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.

1 Corinthians 12:27 I am a member of Christ's body.
Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it.

Ephesians 1:3-8 I have been chosen by God and adopted as His child.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace that he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding.

Colossians 1:13-14 I have been redeemed and forgive of all my sins.
For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

Colossians 2:9-10 I am complete in Christ.
For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, and you have been given fullness in Christ, who is the head over every power and authority.

Hebrews 4:14-16 I have direct access to the throne of grace through Jesus Christ.
Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

I am secure...

Romans 8:1 I am free from condemnation.
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

Romans 8:28 I am assured that God works for my good in all circumstances.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Romans 8:31-39 I am free from any condemnation brought against me and I cannot be separated from the love of God.
What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died more than that, who was raised to life is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:"For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughter"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

2 Corinthians 1:21-22 I have been established, anointed and sealed by God.
Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.

Colossians 3:1-4 I am hidden with Christ in God.
Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Philippians 1:6 I am confident that God will complete the good work He started in me.
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Philippians 3:20 I am a citizen of heaven.
But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Saviour from there, the Lord Jesus Christ,

2 Timothy 1:7 I have not been given a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind.
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

1 John 5:18 I am born of God and the evil one cannot touch me.
We know that anyone born of God does not continue to sin; the one who was born of God keeps him safe, and the evil one cannot harm him.

I am significant...

John 15:5 I am a branch of Jesus Christ, the true vine, and a channel of His life.
"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.

John 15:16 I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit.
You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit, fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.

1 Corinthians 3:16 I am God's temple.
Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you?

2 Corinthians 5:17-21 I am a minister of reconciliation for God.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men's sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ's behalf: Be reconciled to God. God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

Ephesians 2:6 I am seated with Jesus Christ in the heavenly realm.
And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus,

Ephesians 2:10 I am God's workmanship.
For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Ephesians 3:12 I may approach God with freedom and confidence.
In him and through faith in him we may approach God with freedom and confidence.

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.
I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

I am challenging you to break those masks that are hanging in your closets and be who God created you to be - YOU!

Sunday, May 25, 2014


There is a difference between giving up control and giving control to God.

One leads to chaos -
One leads to order. (Psalm 119:133)

One leads to fear -
One leads to peace. (Isaiah 25.3)

One leads to uncertainty -
One leads to faith. (Hebrews 11:1)

One leads to sorrow -
One leads to joy. (Romans 15:13)

One leads to self -
One leads to God. (Psalm 16:11)

I have been living too long wavering between the two paths. Now is the time for me to completely let go and let God.

Not an easy task.........

Monday, May 6, 2013

Lillie on Heaven

I caught a conversation of Lillie and Gracie on heaven and thought it was so cute, and wanted to share:

Gracie - What's a mansion?
Lillie - It's like our house 1,000 times bigger.
Gracie - wow!

Gracie - Will we be able to walk to all our friends houses.
Lillie - You don't have to walk, you can just, like, snap and you'll be there. Let's say you want to go to Toys R Us, then all you have to do is snap your fingers and BOOM, you'll be there.
Gracie - Alright!

Gracie - If i snap my fingers and say I want a dog in heaven, then we come back down here, will I still have my dog?
Lillie - I don't know.

Gracie - If I snap my fingers and say I want to be in heaven right now, will I be?
Lillie - It doesn't work on earth.

Gracie - If I snap my fingers and asked to be the most beautiful person, will I be?
Lillie - No. (Gracie grunted) In heaven you will already be beautiful.

Gracie started to ask another question
Lillie - You don't understand it right now, but you will one day soon.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

New School Year

Wow - it has been a while since I last blogged, hasn't it???


The girls and I have begun our 2012/2013 school year this past week. The first day was picture-perfect and left me thinking how great this year would be!! bahahahahaha!

Lillie is mostly reviewing last year's information, so she is able to go thru her work with just a little guidance. She is enjoying our change to Abeka. The books are more colorful, and seem to integrate more 'fun' activities into the learning process. However, starting cursive has been a cause for many a tear shed. All the curves and loops were just too much for her and after a talk with my mom (a 2nd grade teacher who has taught cursive many years) I am switching her to Handwriting Without Tears. It is cursive, without all the fancy curves and loops. Hopefully, it will hold true to its title. :)

Gracie has begun kindergarten. She enjoys the little songs that teach the sounds (we have done short 'i' and 'u' so far) and asks to sing them throughout the day. I love that!! Math started out a little slow, so I am letting her go at her own pace. She already knows her numbers by sight, colors and counting - so what they have me teaching her was boring for her. When we get to a new lesson, then we will slow down the pace. She is also going to start cursive (abeka prefers to start from the beginning) and can write the 'i' from this weeks lessons. I will probably switch her to Handwriting Without Tears as well.

Going from teaching one to two school is definitely not as easy as I had anticipated. We will be making some changes and working out the kinks along the way. I am looking forward to this new challenge though!

Thursday, April 5, 2012


Last weekend I attended a homeschool conference with a friend. I had a blast and came home feeling refreshed and full of new ideas and concepts to try at my house.

I ordered my curriculum for next year (for both girls - is it really possible for me to have two girls school-age?). {SIGH}

I purchase a couple of devotions for my girls and I know it has only been a few days, but I love them. They start with a scripture on the topic, then a story, then application questions (2), a prayer, and an activity. I love the questions because I get to see LIllie's heart when she answers them. I told her there is no wrong answer to them and then let her do that part on her own - I just sneak a peak at her answers ;0). The devotions are God and Me 2 from Legacy Press. I picked the age range 2-5 for Gracie and 6-9 for Lillie. If they continue to do well with them, I will look into picking up the God and Me 1 and 3.

My favorite speakers from the conference were Ricka and Marilyn BOyer. They homeschooled all 14 of their children and has gone thru many trials as a result. They started in 1980 and had to go to court and even threatened that they would lose her children over homeschooling. Marilyn developed a character study for her children and shared them with the public now. I choose one that covers 12 charactor traits (geared for ages 6-9) and am looking forward to starting them. She has studies for all age ranges including preschool and high school. I would totally recommend them to others, even if you don't homeschool, they are a great addition to your family devotion time. You can find info at their website The Learning Parent

Hope you are having a nice start to your spring!!!!